So it happened. The person who made my life a living nightmare for a year and three months was fired yesterday. I received the news by trusted confidant. No one ever wants to celebrate the loss of a job but this person was truly toxic. Toxic at work and to my mental health. I had a hard time accepting I lost my job. Probably because I always wanted to work there and they took that from me. I wasn't surprised I lost it because I didn't fit in and it was made clear I wasn't wanted. I didn't participate in their gossip so they punished me for it and the cost was my 9 year career. Frankly, looking back I wouldn't want to still be there because I was miserable and who wants to be miserable?...but they still took my job and I guess that is what hurts. They not only "took" but they made me feel something I never want to feel again "unworthiness." I hate that they made me feel that way because I know better but yet they made me feel that day in and day out. The reality is what's done is done. They will never apologize, they will never know they hurt me because those ladies are not the kind of people who understand hurt, otherwise, why inflict it? I can't change the past but move forward. Like Walt Disney said, "We Keep Moving Forward." Yesterday, karma has reared it's ugly head and the woman who truly hurt my soul and hurt several people I care about, suddenly, finds herself in the position I was in 9 months ago, without a job. I feel some closure in this fact. To know her kind of meanness has been stopped at the place I cared about. I know I need to get over this whole situation as its a) not healthy and b) its not good to look back...but the fact that she was so hurtful to so many, I can't help but feel justice has been served and that the wrong that was done against me has somehow been rectified in a small way. Really, I don't even want to think about these people, they are not worth thinking about but yet, something lingers and haunts me. I want them to know they hurt me. Since they will never say the words, I will...YOU HURT ME AND IT WAS WRONG!
Have you ever watched those TV Game shows where they have a couple of doors and behind one is a grand prize? Well, this weekend the hub and I found out what was behind our Door #1. The hubby and I are starting the beginning phases of landscaping our backyard. Our first step, was to clean out the area behind our garage. When we moved in, there was about 2 feet of walking space behind our garage the rest of the area was covered in vines. Vines were growing on the roof and generally it was a mess. Not wanting the vines to take over the roof, we I started to clear out the vines last fall. But after we cut a million vines with only a pair of clippers we gave up and decided to clean out the rest in the spring. Spring came around and we didn't do much until one day when I was sick a few weeks ago, I ran into our gardener. I showed him the mess and asked if he knew of anyone who could come clean it out. I could tell he was actually, quite happy for me to broach the subject of
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