I can hardly believe I made it to my third trimester! It's all the more joyful considering earlier this year, I had a miscarriage and I thought I would never have a child considering my endometriosis, which I was diagnoses with at the age of 21. Carrying around that first pregnancy will likely stay with me for the rest of my life, as that baby girl was due Sept 11th but at least it's true what they say, time heals pain. It makes this pregnancy all the more precious as I know how precious life can be. At any given moment life can and will expire. So as my pregnancy continues, I do take much joy in this baby girl and thank God every day that I was able to have a second chance. Only 8 weeks left and I pray to make it to the finish line with baby girl in arm, breathing, heathy and most of all, alive, to enjoy life's wonders.
I always knew I wanted a child but you know, when you grow up and you have a career and a husband who has a crazy career just like you, you begin to wonder if perhaps a child fits into your life. Throw in a little bit of feeling like a child yourself and it gives a person a reason to doubt. I think it's true what they say, you can never really prepare or be ready for children. I think you just have to have hope that your good sense will carry you through. If I continued to wait to feel absolutely ready, I am not sure I would be pregnant right now.
Luckily about a year to two years ago my doctor warned me I was advancing in age and hubby and i took that as a sign to see what would happen. Well, what would happen is now 44 inches in belly length!
I am just starting to see what this child rearing business is like. I know it will be tough but I can already see it will be very rewarding. I am looking foward to the unknown. As i see it life would be very boring if you always knew what was going to happen and generally its more fun when there are people around you, that you love and enjoy the journey with. So now in my advanged age, I can say I am looking forward to this baby girl and all the surprises that come with being a parent.
Children really are a blessing and I am just glad that I recognized that I needed to take the leap at the age I was. I hope with my life experience thus far I can be a really good mom. I may not have all the energy of a 20 year old but alas I have just as much excitement and will power.
As hubby and I put the last touches of baby girls room together and go through the list of items we think we need for her, I can honestly say i am looking forward to meeting her. Oddly I am not scared. I know there are things I will have to learn but that is life. Learning along the way. I am jsut trying to enjoy it as much as I can. Even if I can't have all the sugary sweets I see, I am enjoying it because you know life is precious and some higher power is entrusting me and hubby with a soul to guide and develop. And for me, that is very exciting.
Everyone, is always asking me if I am ready. I like to think I am a highly responsible person so taking on such a big responsibility is a big thing to me and not something I want to screw up.
I always knew I wanted a child but you know, when you grow up and you have a career and a husband who has a crazy career just like you, you begin to wonder if perhaps a child fits into your life. Throw in a little bit of feeling like a child yourself and it gives a person a reason to doubt. I think it's true what they say, you can never really prepare or be ready for children. I think you just have to have hope that your good sense will carry you through. If I continued to wait to feel absolutely ready, I am not sure I would be pregnant right now.
Luckily about a year to two years ago my doctor warned me I was advancing in age and hubby and i took that as a sign to see what would happen. Well, what would happen is now 44 inches in belly length!
I am just starting to see what this child rearing business is like. I know it will be tough but I can already see it will be very rewarding. I am looking foward to the unknown. As i see it life would be very boring if you always knew what was going to happen and generally its more fun when there are people around you, that you love and enjoy the journey with. So now in my advanged age, I can say I am looking forward to this baby girl and all the surprises that come with being a parent.
Children really are a blessing and I am just glad that I recognized that I needed to take the leap at the age I was. I hope with my life experience thus far I can be a really good mom. I may not have all the energy of a 20 year old but alas I have just as much excitement and will power.
As hubby and I put the last touches of baby girls room together and go through the list of items we think we need for her, I can honestly say i am looking forward to meeting her. Oddly I am not scared. I know there are things I will have to learn but that is life. Learning along the way. I am jsut trying to enjoy it as much as I can. Even if I can't have all the sugary sweets I see, I am enjoying it because you know life is precious and some higher power is entrusting me and hubby with a soul to guide and develop. And for me, that is very exciting.
Everyone, is always asking me if I am ready. I like to think I am a highly responsible person so taking on such a big responsibility is a big thing to me and not something I want to screw up.
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