When you are a Pollyanna like me, meaning, a person who likes to look on the bright side of things, your heart wants to believe more than anything that the phrase "Things Happen For A Reason" is true. But really it's a phrase that is used to comfort someone when they are down or when something doesn't go their way.
I just so happened to have something that didn't go my way this month and it has taken me to a dark place. Since I am not usually one to dwell in dark places it's been a really emotional time for me. I don't exactly feel like the shiny happy person I was only a month ago and that makes me sad. Sad that I am not happy and sad that a little corner of my heart has perished. When you have discovered that a little bit of your heart has died it can be a dreadful thing. But I am sure you know this, as dreadful things happen to perfectly happy people all the time.
The problem is the shock of it all. To think one thing one day only to know something else another day can be very upsetting to one's heart. Luckily for me, my partner in life is an amazing person. In the time that I have known him, I have often wondered "How did I get so lucky to find such a great guy?" Cuz, surely, I don't deserve him.
Despite being in a dark place, I did realize in my sadness that there was this amazing person right by my side and that I am grateful for. Some things in life are just too hurtful to do alone such as my recent experience. I don't think I could have continued to function as well as I have if it weren't for my partner, who was there for me and supported me.
People these days don't always value the bonds of marriage, as you see that in the tons of divorces that are announced each day. I think half the problem with these couples is they forget to appreciate each other. Because I never felt like I deserved my wonderful hubby, I try my best all the time to tell him how much I appreciate him. And he does the same with me. I think having this kind of appreciation for each other is the thing that gets you through life's ups and downs.
If I didn't know before, I sure know now that life tests you and this past month was a really hard test. All I can say as I navigate through the dark murky clouds is that I am so very grateful to have such a wonderful man by my side. He is there with me in life's happiness's and he has now been there for me through life's sadness.
I love you hubby so very much and if it weren't for you, I am not sure this Pollyanna would be able to move forward. Thank you for the hugs, vinyls and lunch today. They meant a lot but you being there has meant the most.
I just so happened to have something that didn't go my way this month and it has taken me to a dark place. Since I am not usually one to dwell in dark places it's been a really emotional time for me. I don't exactly feel like the shiny happy person I was only a month ago and that makes me sad. Sad that I am not happy and sad that a little corner of my heart has perished. When you have discovered that a little bit of your heart has died it can be a dreadful thing. But I am sure you know this, as dreadful things happen to perfectly happy people all the time.
The problem is the shock of it all. To think one thing one day only to know something else another day can be very upsetting to one's heart. Luckily for me, my partner in life is an amazing person. In the time that I have known him, I have often wondered "How did I get so lucky to find such a great guy?" Cuz, surely, I don't deserve him.
Despite being in a dark place, I did realize in my sadness that there was this amazing person right by my side and that I am grateful for. Some things in life are just too hurtful to do alone such as my recent experience. I don't think I could have continued to function as well as I have if it weren't for my partner, who was there for me and supported me.
People these days don't always value the bonds of marriage, as you see that in the tons of divorces that are announced each day. I think half the problem with these couples is they forget to appreciate each other. Because I never felt like I deserved my wonderful hubby, I try my best all the time to tell him how much I appreciate him. And he does the same with me. I think having this kind of appreciation for each other is the thing that gets you through life's ups and downs.
If I didn't know before, I sure know now that life tests you and this past month was a really hard test. All I can say as I navigate through the dark murky clouds is that I am so very grateful to have such a wonderful man by my side. He is there with me in life's happiness's and he has now been there for me through life's sadness.
I love you hubby so very much and if it weren't for you, I am not sure this Pollyanna would be able to move forward. Thank you for the hugs, vinyls and lunch today. They meant a lot but you being there has meant the most.
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