I am in a funk. I admit it. My days have been boring and so have my evenings. I don't do well with slow because it gets my brain thinking and I have incredibly high standards for myself. Does anyone else feel like they are on a mission and they desperately need to complete it before the time is up? Well, I always feel like I am on a mission and sadly right now, I feel like mission control is loosing their way. At first glance, I think the only thing wrong with me is that my brain needs some stimulation. Work has been incredibly slow. It usually gets this way after the summer blockbusters have opened but it feels like it is lasting a lot longer than normal. Most people would probably rejoice in the break but not me. There are only so many YELP reviews a girl can write in her spare time. Then there is home. Hubby is working nights. I am not normally a person who needs to be babysat and requires attention but lately I find myself needing that attention. Perhaps because I am bored during the day and come home and I am equally bored waiting for something amazing to happen. I find the only stimulating conversation I have is my half hour talks with hubby at night to recap exactly how much I am not doing with myself. I have been trying to keep myself busy with things I like to do and it works for a while but then a day or two goes by and I am back in a funk. It probably doesn't help that this has been the worse allergy season I have ever experienced. None of the drugs they advertise or sell in the store help me. I feel groggy, my lungs hurt from coughing and generally I am just tired. I am constantly thinking of that movie "How Stella Got Her Grove Back" which I never saw but for which is making me think increasingly more that I had a groove and now have lost it. This morning I am going to go to the spa and I am going to sit there and steam and think about that groove and how I can get it back. To be honest, I pretty much know what is wrong but it's hard to do anything about it. How does one get that passion for a dream back when one has been so completely disappointed by that dream and can't imagine that dream ever being the same now that it has been tainted? How do you fix something you know how to fix but in order to fix it, you have to do something that seems so completely out of reach? That is my main dilemma. Well, maybe the jacuzzi can help me figure it out and help me refocus?
Have you ever watched those TV Game shows where they have a couple of doors and behind one is a grand prize? Well, this weekend the hub and I found out what was behind our Door #1. The hubby and I are starting the beginning phases of landscaping our backyard. Our first step, was to clean out the area behind our garage. When we moved in, there was about 2 feet of walking space behind our garage the rest of the area was covered in vines. Vines were growing on the roof and generally it was a mess. Not wanting the vines to take over the roof, we I started to clear out the vines last fall. But after we cut a million vines with only a pair of clippers we gave up and decided to clean out the rest in the spring. Spring came around and we didn't do much until one day when I was sick a few weeks ago, I ran into our gardener. I showed him the mess and asked if he knew of anyone who could come clean it out. I could tell he was actually, quite happy for me to broach the subject of
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